Random....

I'm battling keeping my gym membership. Hum...pros: I have somewhere to go in the winter, and I have elliptical machines and all sorts of weights (half of which I don't even know how to work). Cons: It's a lot of money. It makes me feel guilty when I want to go running outside instead of going to the gym. Oh the problems of life.

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I have this problem needing change...and space. So I've taken on a new project of re orginizing our previously already re orginized house. Again for the 8th time. It doesn't seem to phase Ty anymore. I think he almost expects it.

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Ever seen the show Confessions of a Shop-a-holic? I'm kinda like that. Well...not the shopping part. More along the lines of having a lot of clothes and having a hard time getting rid of them. However in my new re-orginizing quest, I'm working on our room this time...so that means my closet. I thought about donating my future (hopefully I'll get rid of some) pile of clothes that I havn't worn in a LONG time, but then I'm to attached to them. I need to make sure that wherever they go they will be loved. Childish? Ugh. Just a problem.

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I found this song called "Let's Just Fall in Love Again" by Jason Castro. Look it up...seriously. You have to listen to it. Not Kidding. Love that song. Anyways, it got me thinking about Tyson and I. We love each other, but I want to re-fall in love again, and start "dating" again. I'm so going to plan a dating calendar for us. (with his help of course...he's gotta be in on it otherwise it probably wont work.) but I'm going to do it...someday.

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One day I'll find another job. One day. haha. To bad I'm not feeling concerned about it. I should though...there is so much I want.

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Where did my desire of wants come from. I have a list that's HUGE.

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Have you ever given all your time and effort into convincing someone something and then once they agree you don't want it anymore?

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Let's end on a happy note though.

I've been listening to a lot of music lately.

I came across all my "old school" favorites. You know. The ones that take you back to sixth grade, junior high dances...

I'll share a few.

First off there was my first EVER cd.

3LW.

"Crush on You"

-Boy I got a crush on you...my dad would kill me if he only knew-

alright enough of that. Lets get to the real stuff.

*****'N'sync

"bye, bye, bye,"

-I know that, I can't take no more, it ain't no lie, I wanna see you out that door baby bye, bye, bye-

"No Strings Attached"

-Take it from me, see I would give you love, the kind of love you only dreamed of, baby you're not the only one, you don't have to be afraid to fall in love, and I know that you've been hurt in the past, but baby if you want, here's my heart...no strings attached.-

"Space Cowboy"

-If you wanna fly, come and take a ride, take a space ride with the cowboy baby, if you wanna fly, come and take a ride, take a space ride with a cowboy baby....Why-yi-yi-yipee-yi-yay-yipee yi-yo-yipee-yi-yay. Why-yi-yi-yipee-yi-yay-yipee-yi-yo-yipee-yi-yo."

{if you wanna see something HILARIOUS turn on 'n'sync with Ty around....He's got the moves and lyrics down. Impressive...in a scary way...}

*****Backstreet Boys

"Larger Than Life"

-All you people can't you see, can't you see, How your love's affecting our reality, Every time were down, you can make it right, And that makes you larger than life.-

"I Want It That Way"

-you are my fire, the one desire, believe, when I say, I want it that way. when we are two worlds apart, can't reach to your heart, when you say that I want it that way. Tell me why... Ain't nothing but a heartache, Tell me Why... ain't nothing but a mistake, Tell me why... I never want to hear you say, that I want it that way...-

"Show me the meaning of being lonely"

-So many words for the broken heart. It's hard to see in a crimson love. so hard to breath, walk with me baby. nights alive so soon become, wild and free I can feel the sun, your every wish will be done. they tell me, show me the meaning of being lonely. is this the feeling I need to walk with. tell me why i can't be there where you are. there's something missing in my heart.-

How about a little *****LFO

"Summer girls"

-yeah, i like it when the girls stop by in the summer, do you remember, do you remember when we met last summer....new kids on the block, had a bunch of hits, chiness food makes me sick, I think it's fly when the girls stop by for the summer, and I like girls that wear ambecrombi and fitch i take her if I had one wish, but she's been gone since that summer...that summer.-

"West side story"

-Veronica's a song that's in my head, Veronica's a name i've always said, but her friends say that she's to good for me, it's kinda like a west side story...-

What about the famous *****Eiffel 65

"I'm blue"

yo listen up here's a story about a little guy that lives in blue world and all day and all night and everything he sees is just blue like him inside and outside, blue his house, with a blue little window, and a blue corvet, and everything is blue for him and himself and everybody around cus he ain't got no body to listen to... I'm blue...da ba dee da ba die. I'm blue da ba dee da ba die...

Enough of this boy band stuff, remember *****Vitamin C

"Girls against boys"

-Imagine a world where girls, girls rule the earth. Imagine a world where boys, boys could give birth. Would it be better that way, would it be more fun? would it be esctacy or a revolution? girls 'gainst boys, boys 'gainst girls..."-

"Graduation (friends forever)"

-as we go on, we remember, all the times we had together, and as our lives change from whatever, we will still be friends forever. will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? can we survive it out there? can we make it somehow? I guess I thought this would never end, and suddenly it's like were women and men. Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? will these memories fade when I leave this town. keep thinking that it's not goodbye, keep on thinking that it's a time to fly.

---I think I'll end with the song everyone should take to heart...

"Smile"

-When you wake up in the evening and the day is shot. Find yourself complaining about the things you ain't got. Never goes just the way you want it to. cliche of the day c'est la vie, that's just life, it ain't easy, it's so tough, it's so easy. (Whatca gunna do say whatca gunna do) put a smile on your face, make the world a better place, put a smile on your face."

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Go ahead...remember all those songs you used to think cool when you were younger, you'll be surprised by the memories that come rushing back when you hear the song....